What would you do, if you were me?

Dont kill yourself for starters. It's selfish and the easy way out. Think all the friends and family that'll miss you when your gone. Anorexia is hard to deal with. Take your doctors advice and tell your therapist everything, all your thoughts. Tts the only was she can help you. Seems like some anti-depressent might help you. Although your not happy with the extra weight trust me you'll look much better with it than you do without, and it helping you survive. Tell those at the place to respect your privacy as its getting to you. Anorexia ruins many young peoples lives. Its hard and tough, just try stay strong and you will prevail.