Depression and anxiety symptoms?

Hello. What a tough time you are having. It does sound like you are depressed. I'm not sure if you've looked for any help professionally but it sounds like this would be the best advice anyone can give you just now. I'm not usually one for medication but I have to say you seem to be struggling enough to benefit from something to get you on the right track to recovery. It will get better with time and the ongoing love and support that you have around you. A good relationship with a mental health professional will really help too. Best wishes, good luck x