Im in love with my friend : / im a bi guy...?

You mentioned that she's confused, so possibly she has strong feelings for you too? She might be questioning her own uality now, because though she can't stand looking at a , she is interested in someone who has one. Let her know how you feel, mention that you always considered yourself gay (and though you seem to be questioning if you're bi now, I'd say you're still gay, unless you suddenly are interested in all women), but you are in love with her personality, and you'd like to try having a real relationship with her. She might remember all the great times you guys have had together, realize that she is interested in you too, and go out with you anyway. And who knows? You guys could have a great relationship, even if you aren't ually interested in each other. And you don't have to have to be in a loving relationship either, but if you do, remember that you're "making love", and becoming one with her. It's not "*******", it's getting even closer to the one you love. You will find yourself enjoying it, just because you love her so much and want to show her. Good luck!